Tonight, I wrote something honest. Something I’ve avoided for years.
This journal is a conversation with myself — the version of me who refuses to lie anymore.
I’m sharing it here because art begins with truth, and truth begins with exposure.
I can’t lie to myself anymore.
I can’t justify the way I’ve been doing things.
The truth is simple: I wasted time. I made excuses. I pretended I was “trying.”
But deep down, I wasn’t.
Even saying “this is a realization” is another subtle justification —
yet it’s still true.
Because now I can clearly see the difference between a life with discipline and a life without it.
I remember a line from The Alchemist:
“When you are young, put your time and energy into achieving your dream, because as you grow older, you lose the energy and intensity.”
And it hits harder now than ever.
Yesterday I listened to an audiobook on memory.
There was this concept: The 90–90 rule.
Every 90 minutes the brain completes a cycle —
90 minutes of peak energy,
followed by a necessary break.
It makes sense.
And without even knowing it, I’ve always worked best in these flexible cycles.
But beyond all this, there are some brutal truths I can’t avoid anymore:
- Money is important. The world respects you only when you earn.
- Earning money is not easy.
- Excuses have a cost.
- Money boosts your confidence and your sense of power.
- Once you start earning seriously, you transform. You’re not the same person anymore.
So my realization is this:
Right now, making money is not about greed — it’s about fixing myself.
It’s about shifting myself from mediocrity to meaningful work.
It’s about breaking the old cycle and rebuilding my identity.
Yes, money will change things,
but more than money —
discipline will change ME.
Today is 20/11/2025.
One month left for this year to end.
And I’ve already solved one of the biggest challenges of my life —
my digestion, my food issues, my health.
Something I couldn’t solve for three years… is finally done.
That tells me one thing:
If I stay consistent, everything else is possible.
The biggest enemy now is EXCUSES.
And I’m done fighting softly.
From today, from this moment…
NO EXCUSES. ONLY ACTION.
No stories.
No justifications.
No delaying.
Just disciplined execution.
This is the real beginning.
If you’re reading this, maybe you’re carrying the same weight.
This isn’t motivation — it’s a mirror.
When you finally stop lying to yourself, your real life begins.